When all things began
delighted in it all
stillness was woven into the fabric
unwilling to move
or be forgiven
lay in the wriggling dust as sea and land made covenant
and bided its time
but stillness was wise
and had a patience self-love could not
And Beauty would spring up
that stillness caught the eye
Ascesis = exercise, combat
Ascesis =awaking from the sleep-walking of daily life
Clément comments on John of Damascus...
Philautia is the contradiction of beauty.
our forgetfulness - God, who is God?
our dullness - our neighbour is not my concern
our ignorance - the loss of the capacity to wonder.
Philautia moves us towards the desire for power and control of things, others, God.
Philautia, self-love, expends the least effort, as nothing is seen as worthwhile if it is not possessed, and it allows the ego to pretend to be the "real me"and our soul is thus enclosed behind the showy action of the egotistical self.